Monday, October 24, 2016

The Dream Boat

At night, after I brush my teeth and crawl into my bed
I wait 'til everyone's asleep to slip out my window ledge.

I climb the rope that leads me way up high into the clouds,
Looking down below I see the lights, the cars, the crowds.

Right above the clouds my prized possession stays afloat,
And every night I climb up to the deck of my dream boat.

With my dream boat I can go anywhere I want to go,
In just a short ride through the clouds we can get to Tokyo.

Holland is nice this time of year and the tulips are exquisite,
The Great Wall of China is tough to walk but it's really nice to visit.

So pick a place out on the map and we'll sail off straightaway,
London, Russia, France, Belize or the San Francisco Bay.

We'll do as much as we can before our time runs out tonight,
We have to make it back home safe before the morning light.

Don't worry though, we have much more exploring still ahead.
Tomorrow night we'll sail again, so sleep for now instead.


In my last post I mentioned how I saw an illustration on Pinterest one day that had inspired me to write a poem.  Instead of sharing the poem only, I thought I'd also share the illustration because it ties in with Alyssa's prompt:  "The almost inconsequential thing you observed, but can't seem to let go of or forget".  This illustration by Eliza Wheeler popped up on my Pinterest feed about 9 months ago and since seeing it, I couldn't get it out of my mind.  I pinned it immediately and have looked at it over and over again during the past 9 months.  It just reminds me of how much fun and freedom I felt when I was a kid, going on wild, magical adventures by using my imagination.  Grown ups don't live like that anymore.  We know what the world is like, we know the truths and the lies - but, that picture just seems to make reality melt away, if for just a few moments.

I'd love to turn that poem into a children's book someday.  Even if nobody but my mother buys it.  It's a dream of mine, a way to take my still active imagination and turn it into something real.  So, if anyone would like to give me feedback on the poem, I'd love to hear your thoughts on it!

Friday, October 21, 2016

Drafts on drafts on drafts...


Another day, another post!  I'm really so glad that I decided to join Alyssa's non-challenge challenge because I had forgotten how much I loved doing this.  Writing, interacting with others, getting my brain moving and thinking about things other than hearings, contracts, practices and dinner plans.  Her prompts have inspired me in different ways and have pushed me to think deeper and get out of that funk I've been in.  Today's prompt:  "A blog post (or a list of post topics) you want to write but have yet to hit "publish" on" forced me to go back and look at the posts I had never finished and I was able to write them off or rework them a little with a fresh perspective.  Here's my list:
1.  Parenting Truths - Basically, a list of tips and advice those "What to Expect" books don't cover.  Like how important it is to stock up on Clorox wipes if you have boys, because no matter what, they will sometimes forget to put the seat up miss the toilet and you do NOT want to sit down on sticky pee.  EVER.  And how no matter how much you love your kid, you're gonna need to punch something every once in a while, so find a good outlet for your frustrations.

2.  The Girl Who Hated Reading - This isn't really a blog post draft, more like a children's story that I had started when an idea came to me and then the story puttered out.  I've kept it in the hopes that something will come to me and I'll go back and finish it one day.

3.  Big Lessons from a Little Island - This is actually a book review and giveaway that I never got around to finishing.  Maybe I'll do it around the holidays because I love giving away things during that time.

4.  Shop Guam (Series) - I had planned to start a series where I post local shops and vendors that I love here on island as a way to highlight them and show the rest of the world how beautiful and unique Guam is.  Most tourists who come to Guam only see the shopping malls and big brand-name stores while the smaller businesses get overlooked.  I still really want to do this series but I haven't been out much enough to go shopping and take photos.  Putting that on my to-do list for this weekend...

5.  Summer Getaway in Saipan - This post was supposed to be a recap of our Saipan getaway weekend back in June.  I just never got around to writing more than one sentence so far.

6.  Busy Bitch Enchiladas - I've never claimed to be a foodie and I don't really post recipes on here, but this one was so good that I wanted to share it.  But, I didn't take good photos of it the first or second time around so it's still stuck in draft waiting for me to make it again and take photos.  Another thing to add to that to-do list...

7.  Lush Cosmetics Haul + Review - I just recently started using Lush products and wanted to do a haul/review post about it but never got around to it yet...

8.  Books Lately:  October 2016 - Okay, this one's sitting in my drafts only because October isn't over yet and I still have time to read more books!

**There was one more post I had stuck in draft for a few months until I revisited it today because of this prompt (thanks Alyssa!).  It's a little poem (16 lines) I was inspired to write after seeing an illustration on Pinterest.  I hope to turn into a children's book one day, soon as I figure out where to start.  Does anyone have any advice on that?  Should I post it here for feedback?

Wednesday, October 19, 2016

I'm the Kinda Girl...

...who will put extra cheese on everything.

...that's never cared much for sports.

...who doesn't like Subway because she likes more meat than bread.

...that suffers from bouts of anxiety attacks every so often.

...who doesn't always hide her feelings for the sake of others.

...that knows what she wants, except for when it's time to pick a restaurant.

...who talks fondly of her past - not because she wants to be that girl again, but because she just loves the feels that come with it.

...that has trouble remembering people unless they've shared a laugh together.

...who's not great at whistling or snapping her fingers.

...that will always be a little messy, and I like it that way.

I had fun writing these few little tidbits about myself.  I think I'll do this every so often because it really made me feel good about writing and made me feel good about myself, especially since I've been feeling a little down lately.

Tuesday, October 18, 2016

"It's like riding a bike", they say



When I saw that the second prompt in Alyssa's Back to Blogging Non-challenge Challenge was Your best "hold my beer" moment, I immediately knew what story I would post.  I think of myself as pretty graceful and I haven't had many moments where I've fallen or been publicly embarrassed, so this story really takes the cake for me.

Now, it should be said that I have known how to ride a bike since before I can remember.  Growing up with three younger brothers, I had to show them that I was better at them in everything so we were constantly challenging each other in foot races, roller hockey, wrestling, skateboarding, and (of course) bike riding, among other things.  We would even build our own makeshift ramps to see who could jump the highest.  Basically, I know how to ride a bike.

Fast forward about 10 years, and I'm hanging out with a group of friends in someone's garage one evening while a few of the boys do tricks on their bikes on the street (it was about the time when the whole BMX thing was big).  Anyway, so of course I had to get up and do something because watching them do little wheelies and hops made it look soooooo easy and I grew up doing that stuff.  Easy, peasy.  Never mind that I hadn't ridden a bike since I was in elementary school, because as the saying implies: once you get on the bike, you'll remember how to do it.  So, I get on the bike.

As I start pedaling, I think to myself, "Yup, I know what I'm doing now.  No problem."  I pedal down the street and turn around.  Piece of cake.  So, I try another run and pick up speed.  By the time I'm heading back up the street, I'm going pretty fast.  I want to stop.  Unfortunately, this bike doesn't have the back pedal brake that I know and love.  This bike has two hand breaks instead.  And while I know how to use the hand brake, I can't seem to remember which brake stops which tire.  In a panic, I squeeze one.

WRONG.  I pulled the handle which controls the front brake.  Because I was going so fast, the back of the bike and my body are flung forward, over the handlebars and the front tire.  I crash ungracefully in a heap on the pavement, with the bike falling on top of me and my friends saying "oh, shit" in the background.  I get up with some cuts and bruises and try to smile and laugh it off to hide the tears of embarrassment that are threatening to come out.  Thankfully, a few minutes later, someone else told a joke or did something to draw the attention off of me so I spent the rest of the evening in the background trying to keep a low profile.
Needless to say, my career in BMX didn't take off like I thought it would.  These days, I always familiarize myself with the brakes as soon as I get on a bike and I no longer go so fast or attempt to do any tricks.  Falling on my face had a way of keeping my inner daredevil contained.

Moral of the story:  bikes suck.

Thursday, October 13, 2016

Songs of Loss



First off, thank you Alyssa for giving me a reason to write.  I've been stuck in a funk for quite some time now and her "non-challenge challenge" is just what I needed to kick-start my blogging again.  (If you want to join and/or find out more about her challenge, click HERE!)

The first prompt in the list is:  Three (or however many you choose) songs that define your life and why.  Now, I don't know about you, but there are a LOT of songs that I feel have made an impact in my life so I really can't post them all because we'd be here for years listening to them.  I do, however, have three songs that define the loss of three influential people in my life that I'd like to share.  Not to be morbid or anything, but I sang these songs at each of their funerals and they just give me all the feels.

Christina Aguilera, "I Turn to You"

I sang this song for my Papa, my mother's father, at his funeral.  He was always warm and comforting towards me.  I remember he would always have treats and little gifts for me in his pocket whenever I would see him.  He smelled of tobacco and aftershave and I always remember this one silky blue button-up shirt that had Japanese-style cranes and flowers all over it.  He was a very down-to-earth person who knew the value of hard work and discipline but also had a way of making chores and other tasks fun with jokes and games.

Perry Como, "Moon River"

There are many different versions of this song by other artists, but Perry Como was one of my Grandpa's (father's father) favorite artists.  I bought him a Perry Como CD when he was admitted into hospice care and he would request for me to sing this song every time we visited him.  He was my best friend when I was little, always taking me with him to Alamoana where he would meet his friends and play chess while I would feed and chase pigeons.  Afterwards, he would take me to the toy store so I could pick something out to play with during our bus ride home.  Even as his health started declining, he was always ready to greet me with a joke or a story and a smile on his face.

Miley Cyrus, "When I Look At You"

Ask any of my siblings who my Grandma's favorite was, and they'd all tell you it was me.  She would even say so herself, because she was a tough-shit kinda lady who would tell it like it is no matter whose feelings got hurt.  She was stubborn, short-tempered and mean on the outside but she really had a great sense of humor and a huge heart and would do anything for my siblings and I.  When she met Joey, she looked at me and said, "Him?  He's not even rich!"  Seriously.  She was never really an affectionate person or the type to kiss you goodnight and she hardly ever showed her emotions, even when she was in pain.  She and I were very close and I know that I'm going to be just like her when I get older.  I think I've already got the stubborn, short-tempered and mean thing down.

Monday, October 3, 2016

Monthly Mantra 2016: October

For the past few months I have been a bit depressed.  I've been angry at myself for not reaching the goals I had hoped to reach by this time of the year yet I haven't been pushing myself as much as I should.  I've been lazy and full of excuses as to why I can't get off my ass and do something.  I keep telling myself that once things settle down I'll have more time to sew and draw and let my creative side out again.  The truth is, things won't be settling down for a long time so I just have to learn how to get over my excuses and do something.  I'm only hurting myself more by not trying and I'm over being gloomy, irritable and dull.

Friday, September 30, 2016

Books Lately: September Update

I did not read at all in August.  At all.  It was just too crazy with the start of school and everything else going on.  September was still pretty crazy, but I also got lazy and stopped working out for a few weeks so I had a lot more time on my hands to read.  Here's my list of books for September:

The Book Thief, by Markus Zusak
This book was pretty interesting.  I liked how it was told from Death's point of view rather than anyone else.  It was a fairly simple story about a girl growing up in Nazi Germany but the characters were so likeable that the end was hard to read without tearing up.  I especially loved the unique descriptions the author used throughout the story because it brought the characters and scenes to life.

Paper Towns, by John Green
This book was just so fast-paced from start to finish that I finished it in a few hours.  Margo seemed to be such an unbelievable, over-the-top character to me.  Straight A student, most popular, tons of friends, yet not one person really knows her?  Seriously?  I like how she planned her whole revenge thing but in the end she was just a selfish, spoiled brat to me.  Who in their right mind would leave a perfectly good life right before graduation to be homeless?  I feel like she needs some major help for her mental health issues.  Or maybe just a smack upside her head.

Life of Pi, by Yann Martel
Okay this one was reaaaaaaally slow for the whole first part of the book.  It took me a while to get through it, but once Pi got shipwrecked, things picked up and I was glad I didn't stop reading.  The ending was probably the best part and I really loved how Pi retold the other version of his story.  If it weren't for the first part of the book I'd have given this a 5/5.  

The Butterfly Garden, by Dot Hutchison
I really enjoyed this one because it was so dark and twisted and real.  It was one of those crazy stories you think couldn't happen in real life but then you think about how messed up our world really is so maybe it could...?  It's basically about a very rich man who abducts girls, tattoos butterfly wings on their backs, holds them prisoner, and eventually kills them.  The characters all have their own complicated backstories which I liked because it helped me to understand them better.  I did have a tough time visualizing the scenes in my mind because the descriptions were complicated.  I also didn't understand the ending and how the author created a link between Sophia, Maya, and the Gardener.  It was a bit confusing to follow, but besides that it was a really good story.

 Who We Were Before, by Leah Mercer
This book gave me all the feels.  It's about a couple who lost their 2-year-old son and how they changed after his death.  The story telling jumps back and forth between Zoe and Edward (the husband and wife) and their past and present.  I love how it tells both sides of the entire story from when they first met to how they grieved differently after Milo's death and drifted apart.  As a parent, I don't know how I would ever handle losing a child, but reading this made me realize a lot about the differences that Joey and I have in dealing with our emotions in our everyday lives.  I highly recommend this book, even if you're not a parent, because its a reminder to be more understanding and open-minded about other peoples' emotions and how they deal with it in their own ways.