Thursday, June 5, 2014

Thursday Thoughts: Following my dream

Lately I've been thinking (a dangerous thing, I know) a lot about my future.  I've always had big dreams of owning my own business and doing something amazing.  When I was 5, I wanted to be a singer/actress/supermodel...or princess.  At 10, I was sure that I was meant to be a welder.  By age 15, I knew that I would be a famous pro surfer or at least an ocean photographer.  During my senior year of high school, at 18 years old, my heart was set on going to the Art Institute and becoming a fashion designer.

Fast forward ten years and I'm now 28 years old.  I work as a legal assistant in a small firm on Guam.  Nowhere near the fashion district of L.A., never put a blowtorch to a piece of metal, and wayyyyy too short to be a supermodel.  And though this job does pay the bills and the benefits are pretty great, I feel unsatisfied with my work life.

I still have the dream of owning my own business and I really loved it when I was able to stay home and create things.  Being that I lived in bikinis and shorts all my life, I thought it would be great to create and design some swimwear and beach wear of my own.  I want my brand to reflect myself and the culture around me and I want to use my business as a way to influence and empower other young women to do amazing things.

I keep telling myself that one day I'm going to do it.  I realize now that "one day" will never get here if I keep sabotaging myself.  I need to save money for materials and supplies, yet I'm constantly splurging on things I don't need.  I start thinking of an idea, and then my mind wanders to the bigger picture and I go off a thousand different ways and lose focus of that one thing.  I say that I'm going to sketch some designs when I get home, and instead stay up all night watching episodes of How I Met Your Mother on Netflix.

I've got to stick to my dream.  I can't continue preaching to other people about finding their passion and living their dreams if I don't do the same.  I don't want to work in this office until I'm 50 years old, still dealing with clients and legal bullshit.  I'll be 30 in 2 years and I want to be out of here by then.  I want my own office, where I can make my own hours and create things that people will love and want to pay me money for.

It's time for me to practice what I preach and to stop sabotaging myself.  Because even if I fail, at least I followed my dream.

What do you think?  What is your dream?  Were you as heavily influenced as a child by Barbie as I was?

7 comments:

  1. Im actually doing what I said I would be doing since I was 2 years old. However ... my new dream is being a mummy so i'll have to make that happen at some point :D

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    1. Oh and good luck i know you'll rock it when you start!!! :)

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  2. girl, it's never too late but you need to jump up and be like nike: JUST DO IT. my friend quit her job for good and will be focusing on her own (creative) business.

    my other blogger pal wanted to work for herself so she started her business while working her day job and when she finally got enough clients to be able to support her day job salary, she quit her day job and is super busy but loving it.

    so just do it girl. sketch one thing and see where that takes you; it might spark something and you'll just plow everything else down :)

    -kathy
    Vodka and Soda

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  3. Go for it girl!!! My dream since I was 5 years old was to be a teacher. When my friends would come over we would play "school" and Id always be the teacher and Id change my name to whatever celebrity boy I was crushing on. Hello Im mrs Taylor (duh JTT's wife) anyway I got my teaching degree last year, right now im a receptionist and unable to find a teaching job but Im actively looking to make my dreams come true.

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  4. I wanted Barbie's pink Corvette for YEARS! ;P

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  5. When I was in high school, I had dreams of becoming a chef, but that idea was shot down super quick, because I'm always improvising in the kitchen. Haha. But since then, I decided to start my own little business. I make cute and limited edition hair accessories. And I can say that I'm happy. I don't make a lot of money, but it's enough to keep me happy. And every time I send something out to someone I feel a spark of happiness, because I know that the person who's receiving the item will be getting something unique, and that no one else will have it. Do what you love, and do it hard.

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  6. First off, I thought I'd added you to my reader list ages ago...turns out I hadn't. Fail.

    Second off - this sounds fantastic and so inspirational! There's no such thing as the 'perfect time' for anything. If now isn't a particularly "bad" time (I obviously don't know your whole life situation) and it's something you truly want to do + have the support to do it, I say go for it! :)

    I love the idea of starting my own business as well...thought about it for years...but I have no ideas whatsoever which pretty much = terrible idea to quit my job Haha But someday, I might be inspired.

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